a voice

I cannot speak for you.
But I can speak for me.

And I will.

(And this is the lesson
I had to learn all along)

“Let the mouth speak
and let the ears hear the sound…”

I cannot speak for you.
But I can speak for me:

I have a Voice.

When I say
“no matter what”
what I mean by that is…

I love you,
in all forms,
in all ways,
for infinity.

When I say
“no matter what” 
what I mean by that is….

I have covenanted
my heart to you,
and you alone,
unconditionally,
and unrecipricollay,
till my time ends,
so help me God.

When I say
“no matter what” 
what I mean by that is…

when offered
anything
and anyone,
I refused all
and chose you,
many years ago,
you – and you alone.
And because of this
irreversible choice,
I am paying the price
of this decision in full;
and now I am yours,
and you are mine,
though we are dying
and brutally ripped apart,
yet to rise, which we shall
indeed, so help me God.

when I say
“no matter what” 
what I mean by that is….

I am behind you
I am before you
I am beside you
I am on your left
I am on your right
I am within
I am without
I am hidden
I am always seen
I am near
I am close
I am furthest away
I am the inner flame
I am the outer storm
I am the inward knowing
I am the outward conflict
I am coffin-contained inside
your whispering heart,
literally,
terrifying you and
approaching you and
speaking to you and
calling you home,
the one you’ve never known
but thought you always did.

when I say
“no matter what” 
what I mean by that is…

so long as
I still breathe,
you are mine,
& I am yours,
and we will not,
so says my KA,
remain buried
and underground
with the dead.

Ma’at! Come now and stand witness.
Weigh them now, the words of my heart,
and judge for yourself the Truth
of what my own KA has spoken.